Poems by Lanaia Lee

Normally, you won't see too much poetry on Abe's Tomb, or its sub-section, Tales of Terror. However, in this fine lady's case, I'm making an exception because of the extraordinary quality of her work and the theme of her work in general. Read the poetry below by Lanaia Lee, and I'm sure you'll agree with me. - Carl

The wolves howl in the desolate background
The owl screeches eerily above my head
This is the kind of night that makes you feel hell bound
Kind of like the night and evil wed.

A kind of night that makes me uneasy to be alone
So dark the night feels like a blanket covering me
So deathly cold I feel chilled to the bone
So dark I can't see in front of me,

No moon shining down so I can see
For daylight I would pay a few
It is like I have to feel my way step by step
Unlock the darkness help me find the key.

Wishing I could feel the sunshine on my face
But all I can feel is dampness and a chill
All I can see is darkness' black lace
The blackness seems it's overflowing it may even spill.

Nothing I can do to change the darkness in the night
Needing to face my fears of the devilish black
The dark and blackness give me an ungodly fright
Courage against the black I lack.

Charles Mason, Ted Bundy, Son of Sam should have been friends of mine
Because we are interested in the same things
We all had the courage to cross the line
Our twisted minds we think we are right in everything.

The sport of killing rules my life
It drives me to do ungodly things
I can hear my victims voices in my head sounding like an eerie fife
The excitement makes my demented mind sing.

I get anxious over morbid things
To hurt and hear the screams makes me fill like a man
The control I posses I feel like a king
I feel as if I am the most important person in the land.

I'm like a vampire not being able to quench my thirst
It seems I can't get enough of the taste
My warped soul needs to be nursed
I need to be cured in haste.

Not getting caught just wait and see
I continue to play my most insane game
My doomed soul will never be free
The beast inside me you can never tame.

Confess and you can leave this horrible place
Take the blame for the things you did
How can you look in the mirror at that guilty face?
Of all the unspeakable things you did and thought they were hid?

Why should I confess to something so untrue?
Take the blame and condemn my soul to hell?
Admit to something I did not do?
If I said I did this a lie I would tell.

Isn't speaking the truth also God's law?
I won't take the blame I would rather die
I'm not perfect I have my flaws
But about this I just can't lie.

I did not commit this treacherous act
My soul shall be guiltless and free
Everyone thinks the devil and I made a pact
According to society I should pay a fee,

I will never confess that I was so low
The guards are coming time to go
Down the long corridor I walk alone
Dead man walking, step aside, he has somewhere he has to go.

The fog rolls down the alley
This is such a dreary unsafe part of town
The dense blackness seems to be as deep as a vall
Each time I walk here I frown.

Luxuries and riches I never had
Something illegal I have to do
How I have to live my life makes me so sad
Someone needs to take me away but who?

Tattered, old, and ugly are my clothes
So dirty I guess I look like a pig
I have lost count of all my beaus
So I stand here waiting for my next gig.

Here comes a man get out of my way
I have to do this so I can eat
At me he smiles I don't know what to say
Maybe this one is nice, maybe by him I won't be beat.

Standing beside him we start to walk
A doctor he must be carrying a little black bag
He puts his arms around me as we talk
Then awful pain the blood flows--------------------

Living alone I sometimes feel uneasy
About unusual things I hear and see
Sometimes so afraid I feel queasy
Especially the things I witness and see.

This old weather beaten wood frame house
Holds all kind of emotions within it's walls
Sometimes in this place I feel as timid as a mouse
I even hear voices sometimes call.

Cold and damp the stagnate air feels
As I am witness to unspeakable things
It's as if this old house posses a will
To hold on to evil diabolical things.

It's like all the energy to be generated here is bad
I feel the evil as it tries to consume my very soul
This ghastly place will eventually drive me mad
Seeming this the house's primary goal.

Some way some how I have to leave this place
Before its goal is achieved
For me to see insanity's face
I must get away and leave.

She instinctively walks the fields
Going back to the place they first met
Her current situation was not willed
Walking through death's infinite net.

Unhappily she mourns her loss
Of a love that was so steady and strong
She is amazed she had to pay such a high cost
Amazed at how tightly she clings.

To a life to which she can never return
But all the love she felt there
Never to go back this much she has learned
Sometimes it seems almost impossible for her to bear.

When you pass no pain are you supposed to feel
But eternal love will always survive
But she can't climb over death's immense hill
How much she wishes she was still alive.

Longing and wishing for something she can no longer possess
Wondering if being without you is her hell
Always pursuing the same unending quest
Day after day without you in death's unending veil.

I feel the sea breeze blowing off the Roman sea
The ocean the sea gulls flying such a pretty sight
As the wind blows I watch the swaying trees
T he sunshine feels so bright.

It's hard to believe it's already 79 A. D.
In this gorgeous sanctuary time slips fast
The volcano adds a special touch of beauty to the sea
Only if these times would last.

I feel the earth tremble and shake
The sky darkens as if a storm approaches
Please don't let this happen for everyone's sake
Maybe I can escape with my horses and coach.

Looking toward the sky it's raining ash
From this there is no where to run and hide
Everyone running and screaming as they try to make a dash
The lava is flowing even into the ocean's tide.

I guess we all shall die from this God forsaken mess
We thought within Pompeii we had the perfect life
We didn't ask for this deadly quest
And the lava flows feeling like the sting of a hot knife.

As I lie here every thing seems unclear
My imagination runs rampant
I have no control over what I do so I feel fear
The voices within my mind chant.

So this is what they call insane
Not knowing reality from imagination
If every one only knew my pain
People would not look at me and make fun.

From the deep dark well of my mind I have no control
The things I do some body else does
There are two of me one being my foe
I take the blame for everything he does.

In my mind he causes all the rage I feel
How can I make people it's not me but him
If only some way him I could kill
For him I feel like I always go out on a limb.

Possessing my very essence and soul
Evil, deadly he makes me be
On my life he really takes a toll
Please, God from him let me flee.

From here you can hear in the distance
The angry ocean hit the rocks at the bottom of the vast cliff
I watch the sea as the waves look like they are doing a religious dance
As I wait penitently for my love to bring a special gift.

Being newlyweds we bought this house by the sea
Hoping to fulfill all of our dreams
Of the life in front of us, you see
All our dreams are coming true it seems.

I try to patiently wait as I am alone
What happens next, was it worth this place?
As I sit outside smelling the salt air I hear a moan
Looking at the widow's walk I see a lady all in white lace.

She was transparent and surrounded by a white haze
Looking as if she is waiting as she looks upon the sea
Am I seeing this? I'm truly amazed
I'm seeing a spirit and don't want to flee.

It's like I see her pain in her stone cold eyes
Longing, waiting, and hoping she seems to emit
You can feel her sadness as she cries
Watching her every move as I sit.

All the riches, fame, and glory could be mine
Never to worry over trivial things again
He can make my life luxurious and fine
Just be his alone putting him above all other men.

Should I question his ways as they are eccentric and strange?
Should I say something about the evil look in his eyes?
I don't want him to think I'm stepping out of range
Hoping he won't be offended by my whys.

Posses me own me I feel he wants to do
At times he is so possessive and over Bering
But there are the times he is so sweet too
I figure it is his way of showing his caring.

Should I submit to him on his terms?
Him trying to rule my very existence?
At times the way he looks at me makes me squirm
Wouldn't that make our relationship tense?

Submit to me child mind, body, and SOUL
I can certainly make your life happy and gay
Beyond time and space away from life's tragic knoll
Submit to me your soul away from me would never stray.

Twenty years plus five these unspeakable secrets have haunted me
Shying away from everyone to keep them safe
So afraid people would see through me
Always so alone like an unwanted waif.

If people knew they would shy away from me
Not wanting to associate with the likes of me
They would run away with unimaginable fear
People always believing what they see and hear.

The ghosts from my past reach out
Haunting, taunting, and teasing me
Making me remember all the secrets I mounted
Laughing and giggling trying to drive me insane, see.

Should I admit the bad to set my soul free?
Not running and hiding from secrets untold
Release my soul, please hear my plea
Secrets haunting me until the day I turn cold/

The secrets from my past I will never tell
Hoping and praying someday I will let go
Of my own created personal hell
To live my life free from woe.

The air is hot and almost unbreathable under the bright Egyptian sun
Here I stand in a place thousands of years old
Anticipation enters my soul feeling like a ton
This feeling makes my blood run cold.

I slowly walk into the tomb as I desecrate this holy place
Thinking of all the years a mummy laid here
Seeing where grave robbers have been, such a waste
Thinking of all the memories within these walls, I start to feel fear.

Feeling as if I am being watched these feelings I must stop
The fear and terror must dissipate
These awful feelings I must not adopt
I will not let my feelings seal my fate.

Terror and horror within my soul dwells
There is no reason for this terror I possess
Trying to climb out of terror's deep dark well
Scared am I, I must confess.

I will try and take hold of my emotions
So the fear and terror will go away
I want to go outside and feel the warmth of the sun
To get away from this horrid place of decay.

I feel the cool breeze as it comes through the window
The definite aroma of roses fills the air
The fragrance is familiar, one I know
The memory it generates is from a time I didn't have a care.

Bringing back memories from childhood long ago
A point in life everything was simple and plain
To a time in which I was loved and cherished so
A point in my life when I had everything to gain.

The fragrance lingers all around me
Smelling so wonderful, fresh, and sweet
The fragrance engulfs my senses, see
T aking me back to a place I would always want to be.

Letting me escape to a time when I had not a care
A place in which I felt protected and secure
When I didn't have all of life's troubles to bare
Nothing but happiness to endure.

The fragrance that of my mom
Which rode the horse to death long ago
Her love always made me feel so secure and calm
Making me feel she loved me so.

I need to get home before I am gone too long
Walking at this pace I will never get there
I need to get home where I belong
Hitch hiking is faster, if I dare.

Motioning each car that passes and drives by
Finally one does stop
A very nice couple, they ask no whys
In the back-seat I go, thank heaven they stopped.

Conversation, small talk as we drive
I try to explain where I need to go
Thinking it is so wonderful to be alive
Feeling as if faced with anything I could pay the toll.

As we near my home I feel strange and weird
I look at my driver and say "I must go now"
They turn around and look I'm gone I disappear
They look at each other and wonder how.

They go to the door and knock and tap
A little old man comes to the door
We thought we were bringing your daughter home
"No" he says "She tries but never makes it to the door."

NOT GUILTY

The grisly murders occurred almost ten years ago
My whole family killed in one night
This whole nightmare could be something written by Poe
I discovered them and that just added to my plight.

They are getting ready to put an innocent person to death
See I was convicted of this heinous crime
The ones that convicted me will not rest until I take my last breath.
They sentenced me to die right in my prime.

Confess and life I would get
Because of my innocence I could not confess
I could not have sent my family to death's deep pit

I loved my family this I could not have done but everyone thinks I jest.

Ten years almost to the day on death row
I tried to set things right but people listen to me no way
As long as I have been here my hatred for society grows
They ask me any last thing I want to say.

Lethal injection, three I.V.'s to end my life
To the gurney they take me "Dead man walking"
The first I.V. injected, the humane way to take my life
The phone rings, clemency, I am free to walk.

CURIOSITY

Not really liking the man my grandmother married
Something evil and despicable was in his eyes
What kind of secrets did he have buried?
Wonder if he told my grandma a bunch of lies?

His poor soul full of anger and hate
What was he trying to shy away from and hide?
It seems like evil is his fate
Because in no one would he confide.

Curious and probing as a child
I was determined his secret would be mine
The look in his eyes always evil and wild
Badly wanting to know in what evil he was entwined.

I watched his every move like a vulture watching their prey
Determined to find out why he was so mean
Wondering if everything about this man was dark gray
I had to know is this man a fiend?

Having time to pry what I found now I know why
What I saw and found I didn't know what to say
White robe, white mask I know he lied
Especially when I saw the letters KKK.

SEDUCTION

I met him in the bar down the street
A handsome man with dark hair and dark eyes
I thought to myself we really have to meet
He was a well built man looking better than most guys.

He walks toward my table as at me he smiles
He buys me drink as he sits and we talk
He arouses passion within me that seems it could go on for miles
I try and refrain because harlot I don't want that label.

Him looking into my eyes I just melt
It's like a hex has come over me
The passion is the strongest I have ever felt
Engulf my body oh hear my plea.

We leave the bar and head for my place
His arms around me make me gasp for air
I know what we are about to do, so I slip into something sexy covered with
lace
I can't help myself it's like I don't have a care,

Seducing me I know what he wants
My emotions are wild and mixed
What I am about to do, me my conscious will haunt
Then I see the triple numbers 666.

I can never look in the mirror again
At the face that did those horrible things
Everyone will see my guilt because I committed a sin
All these bad feelings I just want to fling.

I don't think I can live with myself now
Because of what the voice in my mind instructed me to do
What possessed me? I have no clue
Guilty feelings I have I really do.

I still hear their cries and see the ungodly color of red
The voice made me do this to quench his thirst
The thirst to see someone stiff, cold, and dead
Feeling so awful and bad I could burst.

The bodies they will never find
Search high and low, I made sure of that
Pleasure I got from this I must be out of my mind
Getting pleasure from pain and evil's deep dark vat.

The yearning I have no control
To see the red flow and hear their cries
I have damned my very soul
Stop me if you can I dare you to try.

MY VISITATIONS

You come to me in my dreams
Telling me you still love me and that you remain near
You are so real to me it seems
Loving you in a different plane of existence, I have no fear.

In my dreams we can still walk together hand in hand
We can still look into each other's eyes
You loving me from the dismal land of the dead
Being with you as if you never died.

The bridge between life and death seems so thin
As in my dreams I can touch you again
Like someone gave you a second life to tend
Like you were still here for me to lean on and depend.

I can't wait to get to sleep and see you again
To laugh, to cry, to again be by your side
Of being able to make mistakes, then them we can mend
To walk down the aisle one more time to be your bride.

So special and unique was the love we shared
In my waking hours the loneliness makes me want to cry
In my dreams we shall always be paired
But in reality I still question why.

As i sit by your bedside holding your hand
I'm really terrified of what I feel
Of losing you to death's infinite land
But I have to face what will probably result to be real.

The heart monitor, there is a line
The black Pegasus from the land of the dead has come
From this situation I wish to decline
I start to shiver, then I grow numb.

Your hand now is so lifeless and cold
How do I exist in the evil realm of life without you?
They are trying to bring you back from death's tight hold
Our hours and days together were too few.

Come back to me from the land of the unknown
Don't leave me to face life on my own
I don't want to bury you in the ground so cold
If you leave me my heart shall turn to stone.

As I softly cry, all of a sudden I hear a moan
The monitor starts beeping
Air going into your lungs, you groan
My heart feels as if it is leaping.

EMPATHY

Psychics and mediums are lucky as can be
Not to have the dreadful gift I have and possess
No future events or the dead I can't see
Predicting future events I would never guess.

If all I could do is see what is meant to be
I would be happy and my heart would sing
Empathy I feel things, you see
All the feelings at times I wish I could fling.

Empathy is really a diabolical curse
Never being able to turn off the unending feelings
Capturing my very soul like putting coins into a purse
This thing makes me aware in all my dealings.

Perceiving other people's feelings is not fun
Unending feelings never to cease
Sometimes what I feel is like a ton
To me this is not a gift but a beast.

Being able to feel what other people feel and think
Able to feel people as psychics can see into your mind
Being able to feel someone nearly every time I blink
Empathy I feel just puts me in a bind.

As I sit alone in this hideous evil house
I think of the unpleasant things that happened here
Me thinking of when I was a child, then I felt like a lowly mouse
Diabolical things I remember make my eyes fill with tears.

Crying doesn't make the awful memories go away
This house only holds sorrow and grief
As a child I should have been happy and gay
All I wanted then was some relief.

Living here I lost everything I loved and held dear
Here in this place I always had a feeling of doom
My whole body would shiver and tremble with fear
As I lived in this house that felt like a tomb.

I could look up at the windows and see shadows walking by
Hearing things that I could not see
Despicable evil things, some one tell me why
Why I could never get up to run and flee.

Childhood memories that are so dense, dark, and black
At this time in my life I should not have had a care
Feeling so uneasy here, I always had that knack
To the things I have seen and heard here, I swear.

TAKE MY HAND

Come with me love take my hand
I will tale you to a place beyond decay and pain
I reach out to you to posses your undying soul so take my hand
You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

I will pamper you and tend to your every need
Submit to me and in this life you will always be free
No more pain and despair to make your heart bleed
For all the materialistic things of this life I give you the key.

Child, I mean you no grief or pain
Only a life of unbelievable things
For the vows of heaven you need only refrain
I could make you fell as if you were flying and had wings.

No need to fear me you can never run and hide
To protect your innocent soul from me
Evil's light will shine as I take you for my bride
In this life you will be happy as can be.

From the land of decadence and despair
Take my hand, you can have all life has to offer
In this life you will never have a care
To think I could give you diamonds and furs.

THE HORSEMAN

I walk down the path full of fear
Knowing of the tragedy that happened here long ago
The awful ghastly thing that was done here
That made a man's blood spill and flow.

I try to walk faster to reach the town
Not liking being here all alone
Stopping to catch my breath, the meadow is all dismal and brown
Oh, how I wish from this place to be gone.

The haunting legend of the headless man
Makes my skin crawl and my blood run cold
He rides his black horse searching the land
For his head so I've been told.

The wind blows furious and cold sending a shiver up my spine
I think I hear what seems to be horse's hooves hitting the road
What I see next, am I going out of my mind?
The entity on the horse seems to be in a slow mode.

I view his silhouette against the moonlit sky
A complete torso but no head
I want to get away, I really try
He's coming after me enough said.

TRYING TO COMMUNICATE

Searching from the realm of the land of the dead
Reaching out to you from beyond the grave
Trying to recapture the feelings and everything said
The taste of your lips, your warm embrace these things I will always crave.

You were my partner in everything I did
Supporting me, loving me, guiding my very soul
My love for you of this I will never rid
I know my death for you must have taken a very big toll.

Vaudeville and show business was our work in our earthly life
Illusionist was I and you my assistant and helping hand
You stood by me through thick and thin always thankful you were my wife.
All my illusions were so precisely manned.

My last illusion took my very life
I told you if there were a way
I would reach out to you, my wife
Hallows eve to you I would find my way.

So to you my dear Bess I say
As of yet Harry hasn't found a way
To communicate in any way
I, Harry Houdini, from this I will never sway.

Christmas eve when we first met many years ago
That was the night I totally changed your life
Sharing with you my unholy fate
The only good thing in my existence is when you agreed to be my wife.

A thousand years our love we have shared
I was selfish to make you like me
All these years together I have loved you and cared
But I have a Christmas wish to release you from your hell and set you free.

The ultimate gift to you is for me to set you free
But this gift I can't give you because I love you so
All the decorations and lights and people seem to be filled with glee
People bustling around you can see their faces glow.

Since I love you so I should gladly release you from your hell
But see I can't do that
Because you are the best thing that happened in this morbid existence like being in jail
It kills me to know you have to creep through the darkness just like a bat.

Of all the Christmas gifts that I could give to you
To release you and set you free would be the best of all
But loving you so this selfishly I could never do
Without you my love I would stumble and fall

Return to Tales of Terror	Abe's Tomb - Main Page
Fleet of Angels Info